How was that for a reunion? Are you exhausted? I know I am!
I want to start this blog off by saying how thankful I am for my couch-mates! I know I have said this before, and I will continue to say it because it is true; I wouldn’t be able to do this without my girls Cary Deuber andBrandi Redmond. When I started this journey two years ago, filming the pilot for season one, I was at a place in my life where I didn’t really know what I wanted to do with my day. Chance was in full-time school, Cruz was a year away from starting full time and my days were about to become a little less busy. I feel like God gives you exactly what you need when you need it, and as crazy as it sounds, this journey is exactly what I needed. I never signed on with the expectation of making money or becoming famous, I set out on a journey to find myself and have fun. I thank these two girls for encouraging me to be myself, find my voice and have fun on this crazy ride!
We started off the reunion on a pretty heavy topic for Brandi and myself; our falling out! A lot of time has passed since Brandi and I had our falling out, and I can honestly say, watching it play out on television gave me a whole new perspective on the situation. I saw her struggle, she saw mine, and through that we were able to learn and grow stronger as friends. There is something about watching yourself back and thinking "why did I do that" or "I wish I would have done that instead" that really changes the way you handle relationships. I truly love and cherish the friendship we have and I know that bond will only continue to grow stronger as years pass.
My one big fault this year was definitely that every time that I got in that confessional chair, I thought I was filming my first comedy special. We all have said some things in the moments that we thought were funny and could have hurt other feelings, but I never say anything with malicious intent. I do apologize if anything I said hurt anyone's feelings, but at the same time, I am an equal opportunity offender. I mean even my mom was the butt of some of my jokes this season ;)
I agree, I am not an ass kicker, and I am totally fine with that. D’Andra is a strong businesswoman and an incredible leader; those are boss bitch qualities and I commend her on that. I love seeing other women succeed and her amazing business sense I’m sure has enhances that boss bitch attitude, making Hard Night Good Morning the success that it is. I handle conflict a little bit differently. In that situation, I would have rather watched her stand in my home, around all my friends and look like an ass than give her what she wanted. By not giving in to her silly game, I showed her that I am the boss, bitch! ;P
I hate talking on this topic just as much as I hate hearing about it. LeeAnne seems to always have an excuse for her behavior and this episode it was her “PTSD". I expressed that I feel like her mentioning that is an excuse, but I want to elaborate as to why I said that. First off, I said it was an excuse because it was. You can’t throw your irrational, clearly calculated behavior back to past grievances. Travis had a VERY tough childhood, but he didn’t let that stop him from becoming the successful businessman that he is today. Working in the social field I learned all about manipulation and blaming present behavior on the past is page one in How to be a Victim handbook. True change comes from within and if you keep blaming your past for your present, you will never see true change.
It is behavior like this that does not make me feel safe around LeeAnne. She made a comment when I was expressing my concern that she has never swung at me or tried to lay a hand on any of us, but is that really what it is going to take for us to prove that we don’t feel safe? A physically violent act has to occur for someone to justify their feeling of being unsafe? Earlier this season we found out about a police report that was filed against her for threatening a past boyfriend with sandpaper and a knife, she told Brandi she was going to slit her throat, she threw my glass bowl down in Austin while talking to Marie and she wants to get Cary with her bare hands? What going to happen next?
I was honestly glad that Mark was invited to defend himself at the reunion, because while we have heard everything LeeAnne has had to say about the Deuber’s all season long, the one person we haven’t really heard from yet was Mark. Was I surprised that LeeAnne walked off the set? No! She has talked trash about this man and his family all season long, why would she want to face him? She can say that we are "mean girls" or call this an attack all she wants but the fact of the matter is when you try to attack multiple people all year long and then you get them all in a room, they're going to want answers. There is no justification for her actions which is why she walked out.
Stick with us, we will have one more week until this reunion concludes, and trust me, you don’t want to miss it!