Golnesa "GG" Gharachedaghi is shedding some light on her brief marriage to Shalom following their split back in March after marrying in January. The Shahs of Sunset pal revealed why she married him, even after previously having the stance that marriage really wasn't for her.
"I never wanted to get married. I just have never believed in marriage," GG told E! News. "My friends have always told me that I have commitment issues, and so here's a guy that I thought was amazing and incredible. I felt safe with him, so I thought, 'Let me try something new and show him a little bit more of my vulnerabilities, and I'll try this intense commitment.' Those conversations eventually led into talking about marriage and kids. I think I was forcing myself to see a [future with him]. I wanted to."
According to GG, the nuptials took place as a spur of the moment decision. They began dating in September, were engaged by December, and come January just decided to take the plunge. "We went to a courthouse just to get the paperwork and see what needed to be done in order to get married. And they said, 'You know, if you want, there's a little chapel around the corner.' And we looked at each other and we said, 'F this,' and we just walked into the chapel," she recalled. "I was wearing ripped jeans and a turtleneck, and he was in sweats. Cute outfit, not for a wedding day!"
However, shortly after the ceremony, she knew she hadn't made the right decision. "I wanted to throw up. I was just thinking, 'My dad's going to kill me right now. And my mom is going to wake me up and then kill me again.' It was wrong, and it's kind of a pattern with me. I make just fast decisions in the moment, and I pay the price afterwards, and I am right now," she said. "It was my ego. I had come this far and I made this promise to him and I wanted [to follow through]."
Then just two days after they got married, the Shahs pal was having second thoughts. "He wanted a wife immediately, in that moment of 'I Do's,'" she said. "[He wanted me to] cater to him as my husband and get ready for getting pregnant and cooking and cleaning and taking care of my man. I'm typically more of the man in a relationship, so I will never do that, let alone put a ring on my finger for you and then start doing that. It's not going to happen for me."
Shahs of Sunset returns July 16 at 8/7c. Check out a preview above, and some throwback pics of the crew, below.